It’s been awhile since I’ve written one of these— but this entry feels extra personal.
When did we get to the point where we idolize things we’ve been warned about for centuries? Why if we have an unpopular opinion, it’s suddenly the wrong one and we are next in line to get cancelled? Why does it feel as if we are glamorizing sin, but tiptoeing as Christians? If you have an answer, let me know.
Growing up, there was always a part of me that wanted to be different than everyone else. For example, I had two cartilage piercings by my freshman year in high school because none of my friends did and I wanted to be different. Minor example— but you get my point. That was a time I wanted to stand out.
Fast forward as a senior in college and my morals don’t really align with society’s. In some cases, not even my school’s. The more aware I become of the world around me, the more and more aware I become of this gap growing between me and the world. I feel like such an outsider— sometimes (if I’m being honest), such a loser. It can lower your self-esteem, and that is where I struggle. I don't like standing out in this regard anymore. It's exhausting and painful.
This is where I need grace because I know in my heart I’ve been chosen and deemed enough. But, if you’re one that’s reading this and understands what I’m feeling, you know it’s hard! It can be so tough to stand firm in what you believe and backing up the actions you make. I get it— 100%.
It’s easy to fall into the patterns of this world. Friend, don’t do it for the sake of fitting in. Think about a fashion trend you followed because all your friends were wearing them. When you look back at those photos, do you cringe? That’s what I thought. Maybe society is idolizing what's trending right now. They're idolizing what's in conversation. Have you taken the time to think how following the trend may make you feel when you look back?
Stick to the timeless route. The route that holds its truth— The Word. You are more than enough. You are chosen.
One of the most powerful lines I’ve heard in a sermon recently is this: We think our God is so big, He can take care of the big things. But because our God is so big, He can know and care about the small details too.
Basically, because of who He is, we can be known. We are not too small. He fights battles, wins wars, and still makes it to your dates. He comes when invited. He is present and cares for you as much as the next person.
What trend would do that for you? What society would do that for you? He’s proven this faithfulness to His people and this earth since the day it was made. Timeless as it comes.
My unpopular opinions and unpopular actions are still enough for a big God who still chooses me. Change my mind.
Xx,
Ansley B
Girl! You are amazing and I’m so proud of you! Proud of you, of your stand, of your courage and of your witness! DON’T STOP!! Cheering you on!!!