Hi, everyone. I thought it was about time I updated my blog. I'm going to share with you some thoughts I've had on purpose recently if that's okay with you all. Again, these are just my "what if" thoughts.
One thing you should know about me is that I love surprises. But, I only love them if I have no idea there is a surprise. I like to have things figured out because I feel like that is a constant task in my life. Everyone else knows what they want and what they are going to chase. My mind makes me think that I'm forgetting an important step in life when I don't know what I want, what I want to chase, or who I want to be. Really, this is where most of my stress comes from. I don't have the answers to what I want out of life, but I feel like I have to have them. I feel like I have to have life all mapped out.
But then my mind goes to God's path for me. His map for me. As much as I shouldn't stress about where He is going to take me, I do because I want to keep myself in check and make sure I am going the right way. Like, "God, can you just tell me what career to pick? Because I have so many options and I want to make sure I'm picking the one you've got on your map for me up there. Can I take a peak at it just one time so I know how my story ends? Please?". Someone out there has to relate to this feeling.
I brought these concerns to both my small group this week and my mentor (pictured above-- isn't she cute?) where the responses I received inspired what I am about to share with you all. Bare with me. This is where I get to what I really wanted to share.
What if my purpose is more of who I am down to a core and the kind of person God made me to be instead of a literal destination I need to get to in life?
I mean, think about it. If this is the case, spiritual gifts begin to make more sense too. I like to think of them as pieces of God's personality He has given to us and can continue to give to us throughout our relationship with Him. Keep this in mind for the rest of what I have to say.
What if our path and our purpose are more about how we reflect the character of God to others?
It's so, so simple. If this is the case and we think about it, we just have to allow people to see these sides of us. Isn't that the point in being a light to others? Showing them God's reflection in our life? And in doing that, we're building up the kingdom without even really realizing it. I mean if we are staying true to who we are, who God is molding us to be, and committing to utilizing the spiritual gifts placed in us, then reflecting who God is to others should not be hard for us to figure out. Additionally, if we're truly reflecting God, we're going to assist in building up the kingdom. The human in us will want to tear it down. But when we choose to let the God in us to be shown, we're going to build it up. If I am confident in one thing, it is that God only wants to take us ALL higher. Therefore, if you are tearing something down, sabotaging (to yourself or others), or anything of the sort, just know that is not the God in you. That is not who He is.
Guys, it is SO SIMPLE compared to pinpointing a specific destination. Like really, God could not have made your path and purpose any simpler to understand. God allows us to have desires of our hearts. A lot of times He allows us to pick and choose aspects of our lives. If my "what if" thoughts are true, we have the opportunity every day to choose to show others these sides of ourselves. I get to choose to use my spiritual gifts. I get to choose to display my personality fully to the world in the chance that that one aspect of myself is a light to someone else. They see God in that one aspect of my personality because as God's child, I possess that characteristic of His.
So why in the world should I worry about uncertainty when each day is unique and brings its own opportunities? I know I am still going to worry, but at least I can practice taking life an opportunity at a time as I've said previously. I've got to get used to the idea that I know life is surprises after surprises and enjoy them when they come. Not figure out what they are ahead of time. Because friends, I'm not asked to have it all figured out. Quite frankly, I just have to be true to who I am and choose every day to allow God to reflect Himself in me.
Now that I got my thoughts out, I'm curious to know who relates to any of these feelings!
Xx,
Ansley B
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