I am not ready to share exactly the story behind this post. But I will tell you the overview in hope's that someone would be willing to hold out just a little longer for Him to prove to you what I have already seen.
At the beginning of my first semester of my sophomore year at the University of Georgia, I joined a Monday night prayer leadership group. If I am being quite honest, growing up in my church back home, we did not learn a lot about prayer. The ministry at Georgia, however, really stressed how important it is if you want to have a true and strong relationship with God. I saw this group as a way for me to grow in my faith more than to serve the freshman quite frankly.
One of the first things we learned in this group is how to feel connected to God. He is always there. ALWAYS. However, I know for myself in particular, I didn't understand how to hear Him and know if a feeling was Him prompting me to act on something He was laying on my heart. This is exactly one of the several things they taught us in this group.
Pretty early on in the semester, we gathered in our small groups and were encouraged to truly connect with God, ask Him the prompt we were given, and write a letter from Him in a stream of conscious. If we were doing this correctly, what was being put down was fully from Him. We weren't supposed to write what we were thinking. The prompt was 'God, what do you have in store for me this year?'.
I folded that letter, put it in an envelope, and handed it to my small group leaders. I could not tell you a single sentence from that letter as soon as it was folded.
Now we are in the last full week of March and I just got that letter back on Monday. I walked to my roommate's car with that unopened letter in hand, showed it to her, and expressed that if something about a particular event was in that letter, I would be crying and we would need milkshakes.
Guess what? I cried. And I got my milkshake.
Tears were flowing by about the third sentence. Man, if I could tell you what that letter said, I would. Now all I have to work on is patience to see how the rest of this chapter unfolds.
Looking back, I can see how events all throughout this past school year has prepared me for this moment. They weren't all happy times. In fact, I cried a lot over doors that were shut. But, I also promised myself to trust His faithfulness because, let's be honest-- He's so much cooler than me. And y'all, I strive every day to be someone I think is cool.
I am so proud of the person I have been and become this year. If I didn't just trust Him and His plan, then I would have been so much more miserable than I already have been. And now, I can't wait to see which curveball He's going to throw me next. You better believe I will be ready.
Now that I have physical evidence that where I am going now is something He had planned LONG before I caught on, why would I ever, EVER doubt His faithfulness? I can't. I am just blessed and over the moon that He let me in on a small portion of this grand life He wants me to live. He must think I am pretty cool too, right?
Are you trusting in His faithfulness too? Or do you still think you can plan everything yourself and still have such a cool life?
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Xx, Ansley B
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